I went to a wedding yesterday and had a good time with my friends. Wife was supposed to come but bailed out so I was going to take a girl I know but that didnt pan out as she didnt want to give the wrong idea. I told her everyone knew we were friends, that I was married etc.. but that wasnt good enough. I'm not sure when it happened but at some point I became very undesirable, which is weird, because after seeing myself in my suit last night... I was pretty good looking.
So here is some back story. Kayla (the girl who didnt want to give people the wrong idea) and I have been hanging out a lot. Her boyfriend dumped and all her friends were shared friends of his (including me) but the situation was bad and I took her side. We hang out now and I am one of her few friends. Thats all I want to be.. although sometimes... I think more would be good. She is quick to point out I am not her type (ie. too fat)
The wedding was fine. It was good to hang with some friends and have drinks and destress because work has been killing me. I seriously wish I was back on the Percs... i felt WAY better then.
I am so sick of my company. I need to just go legit (right now most pay is under table) and see where my finances leave me. Then do something else. I just dont have time and am not confident enough to do it.
I just listened to the audiobook "Street Gang" which I recommend. I love stories of how empires come to be and this one was about Sesame street. It was fascinating. If you can suggest anything else in that vein please let me know. Also... if you like that kind of book... check out "Losing My Virginity" by Richard Branson and "Walt Disney:Triumph of the American Imagination."
I dont know what I want. Some days I want to build companies, some days I want to go on wild adventures and some days I want to live a quiet life on an island somewhere... Is everyone this uncertain?
I think I'm going to sleep.
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