Choices

I came across old pictures of myself and Wifes sister. I forgot how much I liked her. And how much she liked me. She has completely changed since, but still... it made me remember some things. I see in the pictures how much she liked me. We hung out almost every day and now I go a month without hearing from her.

Its funny how people change when they get serious with someone. At the time I didn't want to be "with" her, I just wanted to spend time with her. And I kinda wished Wife was more like her. I don't know. I feel like the best years of my life... I fucked them all up and now all that's left is a few decades of boredom and unhappiness.

I would never cheat, but I feel like my world might be a little more bearable if I had sex with someone else... just to try it out. *sigh* I've had lots of chances, but I've never cashed in on them. again... good chance that making a few wrong decisions early on would have lead to a better outcome.